my world of thoughts
chuapeiqin (:
Chua Pei Qin
octoberfourteen89
twenty
post 317
Tuesday, November 24, 2009,
11:41 PM
the house is almost ready... most of my things are sent over, beds are also in,left the shelvings to be done and purchase, gonna get them from IKEA on friday (my off day).
and so wanna get a new table lamp. wonder how so many things gonna fit on my writing desk...
official move will be sat. sat will have go back to the 'new' house...
then comes retail christmas 2009. new production team, though small scale project but with the many many products, hope everything's gonna go smooth. started work ytd. finished most of my paper works. gonna start working at forecout for one week before my counter opens again next thurs. wei2 coming in on monday, so hope, im still having w/o her around. =/
havent start and im feeling stress. a little here and there. lots of things to go thru.
talked and talked about work. how were we appreciated with our efforts? how one is working affects everyone in the team. how every little action has their after effects.
we've worked so hard for retail-mooncake, not becos the job scope is fun or easy, but the ppl we are working with is a great team. this team has 4persons, boss, me, wei2 and lyon. i know i was appreciated with all the help i have given, and i appreciates their help when i needed.
i appreciate whoever that appreciates me!
because no one knows how tough our job is, not even forecourt.
Undecided.fickle-minded
Sunday, November 22, 2009,
1:12 PM
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Friday, October 30, 2009,
12:09 AM
there are just so much about you,that i don know what im thinking and i don know what i want.
sometimes you made me feel this, sometimes that.
yet, sometimes, you have such confidence that no one else showed towards me.
your actions and your words doesnt come together.
which makes me took a step back.
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12:07 AM
retail mooncake dinner is here again. and guess what?we had dinner at Shangri-la, The line, dinner buffet!
great atmosphere and food was good!
especially the free flow sparkling wine! hahahs.
there was so much fun, laughter and crazyiness. lols.
*edits* photos...
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12:00 AM
summary of what's going on with me recently...been working at poolgrill, helping out afew days a week.
just keeping myself occupied rather then staying at home.
the constant nagging and the hassle of noises are jst so irritating.
and ive managed to live like tt for 10years alr.
moving to a new house pretty soon. new? maybe not.
the house itself is old, but newly furnished? definately.
sharing a room. which means my comfort zone became smaller.
for good? i hope so. the company? i wish so.
the family became bigger, which means everybody coming
home for dinner, family gathering at my place, everybody cmg
back to see mama! hmmm... great to have so many ppl ard. but?
i just hope i can get used to it. no more 1 person staying at home,
no more just me and my bro and my mum and maybe my dad.
now, there are you, you, you and you. everyone!
:D
Monday, October 12, 2009,
12:51 AM
had one week of rest after 4 months of continuous working. 
the feeling was great. =] felt so refreshed. had lots of fun.
dined out alot with the little kids. ahhs. PTs from mooncake.
and finally met up with my friends. (:
10th oct. Fong Yi Xin's 21st. also the day where most CCM
gathered together. finally get to see her and huiting!
plus, mabel lam, peggie png, alicia and jeslyn came.
the army boys, vinnxi, yeeliang, jinsheng, julian, terence & justin.
whenever
Thursday, October 08, 2009,
10:58 PM
whenever i start getting emotional, i needa cry.i made myself cry. then when im done crying, i asked myself.
'what made me cry', i couldnt get an answer.
because i don know why i did that. or rather,
when i knew the reason i cried, i found it hilarious.
why the hell did i make myself think so much.
think bout things that are not within my control.
my life, there's only one. i should be doing something
to control my own life. and not let my thoughts of what not
be controling it on my behalf!
=|
Tuesday, October 06, 2009,
11:58 PM
i wrote something on my wall just afew days ago: 'when everything starts to slow down, you will start thinking of the next step.' during dinner today, this person says: 'when one is busy, he/she will just leave everything behind and forget about the unhappiness from before.' now when things really slowed down, i am again asking myself, what should i do next? did i choose the correct path? is that what i really want to do? i guess growing up means deciding on every little thing that is happening around me. every decision i make will bring me through different routes. yet at the same time, when i see my marriott colleagues in their each and individual department, doing what they were meant to do, maybe, i am the lucky one. with no commitments from either side, with more carefree time to play around. yet, i am the one with no commitments, meaning i am the one with nothing but plain numbers on my deck. no Kings and Queens. not even a 10. did i choose right? to part-time my studies next feb. part time throughout in outlets? or part-timing was just what i thought i would do? so many people left, so many complaints i've heard, so many people thought of leaving, so many people hated their jobs, so many of them are actually leaving. i cant imagine working without them. working in a once seems to be the ideal place of warmth and friendly environment, to the now, cold, dull and friendless atmosphere. i enjoyed myself at retail. really really enjoyed the work there, the people, the pace, the busy-ness, the crappy-ness, the place full of laughter, lame jokes and fun. but even boss is so stressed out now, that i seriously hope he will continue a third year in retail. maybe, i am expecting too much. expected the best of everything. the best workplace, the most fun colleague, the most understanding and patient supervisor, the best manager i've ever worked with, the best department to be in. perhaps, no one can enjoy such perfect combination.end of chapter
Sunday, October 04, 2009,
12:15 AM
here it comes, and here it goes. how time flies.thats what people has been saying.
and indeed, this year passed by really fast.
not the end of the year, but the events that happened
one after another was real quick. one snap, i've graduated.
another snap, i went back to PT at Marriott.
spending my lovely bored-ing time at cupcake,
busy lunch-ing time at wanhao, then comes the highly
anticipated mooncake project. and now, mid-autumn just
flashed by, the weeks of hard work stopped like that.
thinking of so much that happened. so late the stay at marriott.
so fucking screwed-up deliveries i did. so many loop-holes
and never followed-up pre-orders. everything passed
and the best thing is, we closed shop early. ahahs..
everything sold out like hot-cakes! woohoo~
although never meet budget. but thinking about the cons and all,
everyone did chiong and bianh really hard la!
great job boss! great job offsite runner! you two the best la!! =]
refreshing
Saturday, August 22, 2009,
3:18 PM
refreshing. meant some memory refreshen (:the though about going to move down to my granny's place was rather intimidating..
as in, it would be a whole new phase of living together, accomodating each other
and the best part, we are sharing a room. hahs! 'THE BEST PART' i assure you.
but, it's what we are suppose to do. it's what we are suppose to be. a family.
i was just going thru some 'things' i have. some memories i kept down down
in my drawer and saw the many innocent faces of my ex-classmates, from
primary school to secondary school, to my polytechnic.
so much has grown in each of us, all leading our separated lives.
it just shows how much one has to grow up. to live in this world. the scary world.
it's been a month since i last updated. and in the midst, lots of decision i have made.
no more waiting for a uni entry. now, i have just applied to mdis. with 2 friends.
waiting for our exemption results before really heading into the school.
and, im still with marriott. doing retail yet again. helping out with mooncakes sales.
given responsibilities which i enjoyed most. having felt important and needed
in the assisting was great. at least in the few months to come, i know i am enjoying
what i am doing. hence, giving up UNLV was right.
i hope, it will continue to be =]
what am i planning?
Wednesday, July 15, 2009,
10:30 PM
i just shared, moments ago, in my facebook,that i cant erase the fact tat before me, is a blank sheet of paper.
rejecting UNLV's placement, is a huge decision i made,
that my family members disagree, but my friends supported.
there's nothing i can do now since ihave already declined.
sometimes i feel, i should have just agreed to the placement,
fork out the money, at least it guarantees me a degree,
a stepping stone to a better future.
but sometimes, i think, i just afford to spend that money,
spend that AMOUNT of money.
yes, i did the right thing right? by declining it?
i should not think about it anymore, and shall not regret the decision.
now now, im thinking of what i shud do to my life.
i cant just work my ass out for the rest of my life.
i need to figure out what i can do to create a better life
out of this shit that i am in now.
is it necessary to do a degree now? what degree? where to do it?
i dont want to find some lowly private school which might just close
down the next moment. i cant possibly go overseas.
there isnt much local choices i have.
or maybe, this just isnt the time to do a degree?
but what else can i do? work? where? stick to retail at marriott?
that can only last me until january.
and in between projects there are weeks of break.
can i just do that? or maybe, i can take up part-time courses?
before i graduate, my plan was to do a part-time accounts diploma
before looking for a university, in the midst, working too.
but now, seeing the part-time course in TP,
i've missed the dates quite far back. and the next enrolment
is next year, jan for accounts, and april for hospitality.
that, makes me waste 1 year already.
what the damn shit shud i do now? working part-time all the way?
take a part-time specialist diploma next year? darn!
sometimes, i regretted doing F&B in poly.
if i were to do accounts, it would be much easier to find a uni now.
emotional week.
Saturday, July 04, 2009,
12:09 AM
emotional week. as in, i made lots of decision.first forth, the transferment of me to another dept.
wont be working at the cupcake store anymore.
only weekends now to cover another associate's shift.
put to wanhao from mon-wed to cover buffet lunch.
permenant off, thurs and friday... hmmm..
went for the UNLV scholarship interview and the process
i can say wasnt good. as i though over the questions
one of the interviewer asked, i couldnt think of my future
prospects in this line. maybe, i shudnt have applied
and given myself hope in the beginning. anyway. as expected,
i didnt get the scholarship. and finally made my decision
after thinking and talking to my parents and my aunt,
my friends and whoever, i will decline the UNLV placement.
work for now, and look for another school and that i can
financially cope and of cos, an environment good to study at.
i kept thinking and worrying if i made the right decision.
but somewhere in me feels that i wont like the curriculum
of the school. maybe im really not into the hospitality line
as Wei said, i have the unapproachable face. hahs.